I dont know if I can make it this day. Its a stuggle to cap letters. Waking up and instant panic to die. This cant be described. It literally feels like there is a 12 ft round black lumpy mass of changing bubbling moothing around sickest black death of dfgkjlsdflkg around my head now. It feels like a million poounds. But yesterday I was okay wasn't I? Living is so much. Typing, just distracting from the pain