This afternoon something unexpected happened. I had promised not to open his chat, but I got frustrated and curious and impatient. So I opened it, last was two weeks ago.
I hoped he would have sent something at least. When I opened the chat and found nothing there, it moved me to tears. I went to the bathroom for privacy, I am still feeling a deep ache in my heart between my throat and chest. In the morning and for the past few days, I've been having dreams and they've been very sexual. I have a therapy session scheduled for this week, and my therapist and I are focusing on this topic, she said that it may take some time to work through.
I have become faster at work now. I amazed myself.