Hanging in but sometime yesterday I had a major change but don't remember much. It's a all a blur like a dream. Idk why but I'm that person who 1000000000% believes this reality is 10000000000% fake! Everything, everyone. And I hate believe that. But it's impossible for me not to believe it. It's so hard believing everyone you ever knew is/was not real. And worst of all I believe the creator of this reality is evil, the worst kind of evil. An evil creature who TORTURES DEFENSELESS INFANTS!

Just taking a deep breath of air and falling into the usual dissociated numb zombie that this part of me always becomes so I guess in awhile I'll be okay. I can feel it starting kick in like a drug that numbs pain.