I finished after 20yrs. I didn't get a proper finish because of covid. It was my decision to finish.. .... I was sad and relived at the same time And a little bit hurt and angry... That was 4yrs ago... I can still feel those emotions but they're very quite now and as soon as I've feel them they're gone... I don't think I she'd tears... Not because there's anything wrong with that I just never felt like crying. Just a hurt heart at the safety I was leaving ... I ask myself would I go back at this point in my life and the answer is no, so the feelings must just be a natural part of leaving when the time is right for "you"..