Dear T,

Well, that brought out some paternal transference today. if he finds anything before I leave for session. In part your broad praise of my writing. But more your questioning why, instead of just focusing on the positive with working on the memoir, I had to bring up the negatives, too. I think if this were a couple years ago, I might have been offended or upset.

But, you're right. Why can't I celebrate this victory, that I've been focusing on something positive that's important to me. Instead of getting down on myself about not exercising more? I think it's about message from childhood. About being perfect, so one good thing is nowhere near that. and my own self-esteem issues (well, I guess those were planted during childhood).

I also think some of this is struggling to take the praise from you. As much as I crave praise and approval, it's difficult for me to accept.

Love,
LT