I'm just a shattered part of the host. We have a memory long long time ago: I asked my alters to take over my body. Less than a minute I found myself ~10 inches below some type of light that I sensed was an alter. I heard very clearly & loud a voice saying "Paul, this is Ryan." I was inside a black void. It wasn't painful at all. But supposedly when us, the host, is out for a long time we drift further into darkness, no light, and we start to get colder until it's uncomfortable, and we're weightless so it always feels like we're falling, and supposedly you start to feel so far away from all life and loneliness becomes almost unbearable, and over time panic starts to kick in, and they say it gets worse and worse and worse and worse and worse until we lose consciousness, but then we wake up, and the cycle repeats.

Hm I forgot the reason for posting this