OMG I feel so much better all of sudden recently. Our DID switching is becoming less and less hidden. That was one of our very disturbed suicidal parts. Switching from that part to a more positive part is like this kind of cool but yet warm heavenly current flowing through us. Lol I know that must sound so stupid so there's just no words to describe it. In short, it's a feeling of ecstasy. If you can imaging being in such terrible pain for a long time and then all of a sudden it vanishes.
But I'm trying to be at least a little realistic. We have a full spectrum of problems. But we're going to endure our problems for as long as it takes.