I am afraid my clozapine number is up again (for those who don't memorize my life it was over 3x where it should have been last summer and we've lowered it a lot). The reason we got the test in the first person was increased hand tremors and I was spilling food on myself pretty much every meal. And now those things are back. I sent my pdoc a message asking if I need a test so we'll see what she says. I'm REALLY hoping that she gets back to me quickly tomorrow because I'll be in a city that has a branch of her hospital (it's a sprawling giant of many campuses) and could get it done while I'm there. Otherwise I'll have to wait a week.

I'm also very anxious today. I have no idea why. I had a wonderful time watching the eclipse and we took the dog for a walk and I ran over and got some antibiotics for the dog at his vet's. I just am anxious. But it will pass and if it doesn't my next round of meds will take care of it . I hope. Well, I did get this mystery car insurance bill. I just paid in full 3/5 and now they want 2/3 of a payment more. I got a new car but was told the insurance cost was only going up $1 because my old car was old and the new one has safety features like a backup camera and bluetooth. So I'm not sure why they now want another huge amount of money. But I can't do anything about that until tomorrow. That's still not the total source of the anxiety as I've been anxious all day.

I'm also mad because I accidentally went over my daily calories. Only by 19 but still, going over isn't good.


On the other hand, that eclipse.......amazing. We had 98.17% totality so it didn't get dark but it was like dusk and the birds got quiet and it was so still. It also got colder even though there was no wind. It was incredible and I'm so glad I got to watch with my mom.