I am so sorry for your suffering.

(((( cool09 ))))

Though it's almost impossible to engage in self-care activities when you're so low, do try. I would focus on diet and building your microbiome, focus on gut health.

The Edgar Cayce (pr. Cay-cee) 3-day apple detox has helped me clear brain fog as well as cure severe urticaria when no one (the medical community) could help me. A word of caution, make sure it's safe for you to do.

Here are some books/resources (some might be available in audiobook/CD format) or clips on YouTube:
Books by Udo Erasmus
Dr. David Permutter book "Grain Brain".
Forks Over Knives documentary
Dr. Joan Borysenko book "The Plant Plus Diet"
Dr. Andrew Weil
Edgar Cayce

You might want to look into getting a doc that focuses on integrative medecine, also functional medecine.

Look at reducing inflammation... there's a blood test you can take to test your levels... I forget what it's called...

Holistic therapies might also help: hypnosis, acupunture, massage, tai-chi and qi-gong, a good dietician who knows about microbiome & gut health etc.

Medicine-wise - have you heard of ketamine? or tried it?

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