I have such a severe lack of appetite lately. Since I started working again. Nothing is even remotely appetizing, not even my comfort foods or typical binge foods. I have to force myself to eat anything and it feels like I’m gonna throw up while I’m trying to make myself eat. Like it’s gonna come right back up. I also haven’t wanted to drink any coffee which is unusual for me because I typically drink black unsweetened coffee most of the day most days. Now I can barely get myself to take a sip and I feel horrible if I drink it. It’s really weird. The last time I felt such a lack of appetite was when my mom was actively dying from cancer and the stress that caused. Like I have my comfort foods in the cabinet and the thought of them makes me nauseous. I tried to force myself to eat a sweet potato today and it felt like I was gonna gag the entire time. Idk if it’s stress from work or lack of sleep or if I’m getting sick or what. It’s just highly unusual for me to have a lack of appetite to the extent of even the thought of food making me nauseous. Idk if this is good or bad. I mean I guess it will help me lose weight. But it’s highly uncomfortable feeling nauseous every time I try to eat.
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“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Diagnosis:
Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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