I don't even know what to say anymore. I'm still SHing at least every other day despite taking my PRN and trying distractions. I don't know if I'm not trying hard enough or what. I don't care what happens and I'm punishing myself for being alive or not doing things right or something. I guess I'll keep talking to people, posting here, etc. and journaling. Making it through work is becoming harder; I'm glad the weekend is coming, but not sure what I'm going to do other than stay home. I just want to sleep.