Acceptance is the key to this whole thing. My husband showed up at his mom's house around 11:45pm Thursday night after being missing for 4 days. I am at the point where I am the point of acceptance. And the most important thing is that I find enjoyment out of life again.
In the Language of Letting Go for today April 13th is:
On this April 13th, we explore the theme of enjoyment. 🌟
One of the prohibitions many of us learned in childhood is the unspoken rule: don’t have fun and enjoy life. This rule creates martyrs—people who will not let themselves embrace the pleasures of day-to-day living.
Many of us associated suffering with some sort of sainthood. Now, we associate it with codependency. We can go through the day making ourselves feel anxious, guilty, miserable, and deprived. Or we can allow ourselves to go through that same day feeling good. In recovery, we eventually learn the choice is ours.
There is much to be enjoyed each day, and it is okay to feel good. We can let ourselves enjoy our tasks. We can learn to relax without guilt. We can even learn to have fun. Work at learning to have fun. Apply yourself with dedication to learning enjoyment. Work as hard at learning to have fun as you did at feeling miserable. Our work will pay off. Fun will become fun. Life will become worth living. And each day, we’ll find many pleasures to be enjoyed.
Today, I will let myself enjoy life as I go through my day. 🌞