I guess I'm coming to terms with the results of me being a mentally ill mother. I have a disorganized Fearful attachment style (also MDD c-PTSD and dissociation)and spent a lot of my time in bed depressed. This had to affect them, and now I'm seeing the results.

Not that I am solely responsible. They had asshole fathers, too.
I just wasn't a strong, solid mother with good principles. I let so much slide. And when each of their fathers did things to hurt me, I just became frozen in shock. I didn't do anything to remedy the awful things that their fathers did. And for that, I am upset with myself.

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