Hey folks.

I stayed away from this forum for a while because the system was not in a good place. So now I decided to lurk a bit, and surprise surprise, a part of mine has decided to post. I couldn't guess whose post this is - I don't know who is constantly looking in the mirror to freak themselves out.

But I do know that I avoid looking in the mirror at all costs. My theory is that it's because I find myself ugly. A couple of friends told me they look in the mirror nevertheless even though they think they are ugly.

And yeah, people always tell me I look like a whole different person in pictures. Some people used to sort of think of me as a freak because of it. They always looked the same in pictures. Last weekend I was so relieved when my boyfriend showed me photos from his past, some were from last year and I was all "You don't look like this at all!" and he doesn't have DID So that was a huge "Yay I'm Not a Freak" moment for me.

Those have become more and more important for me nowadays... Sigh. The managing continues.