We talked to Dr. Nanette De Fuentes
Dr. Nanette De Fuentes, PhD, Psychologist, Glendale, CA, 91203 | Psychology Today
She was the only one that seemed close enough to deal with our disorder but she said she's only doing virtual telehealth and that what we described needs to be in-person therapy. But there's no way we're going back to that. That was too stressful.

No worries because we always have suicide hotline and the del amo psych ward. Oh and better yet we have healthNet through medical insurance which has instant therapists on-call. We've done that a lot before when we were feeling suicidal or close to it. We just called and within minutes we're talking on the phone to a therapist. But it takes a lot for us to call because of people saying they can call the police if you're too suicidal. So we just have to be careful what we say. Like don't say "I'm about to k** myself!"