I'm so split on getting a T. Should just toss a coin. Seems like all I did with my first T for an entire year was talk talk talk talk talk. She always had interesting comments though but that was about it. Second T, which I rarely even mention was a social worker. I was homeless at the time, kinda, just living in a tent for a few months. She rarely talked. It was just me talking and when I stopped there was uncomfortable silence. She was young and retired as a therapist after me. Guess she learned it wasn't for her. Third T was good. Over the year or 1.5 years she gave me lot of tests, spent months teaching me DBT, we spent 2-3 sessions going through the DSM analyzing every possibility for me, spent a few sessions doing EMDR. I don't know why she didn't do that much EMDR. There were times when I completely blanked out, lights out, and another alter fronted. I woke up / fronted again and had missing time. She said I was conscious the entire time, but she said my eyes suddenly darted to corner of my vision. Maybe that's why my sister and her son have sometimes got a half foot away from my eye and stared at it while she/him talked lol. That's probably when I switched. So eventually she sent me to a DID specialist on the side and I have to say he was by far the best but he really made me too nervous. He did special sessions that got the alters to front and I did not like it at all because it gave me a cold panic feeling when I came back. If I could find a T like him except someone who didn't make me feel like running out the door then that would be great. I think getting a good therapist just requires some good luck.


Anyway sorry if that's too much rambling.