I can't believe once again here typing and I feel 100% singleton, not multiple. It's kinda scary. I hope they're okay! The silence is deafening. I really really don't like it. Integration is no good, IMO. Maybe I'll call out to one of them to see if they respond, something I haven't done in ages, because long ago I was determined to have nothing to do with them for a lot of reason. But I feel bad about all of that, going our separate ways, if you will. Ugg I hate this feeling. Seems like I'm never happy But anyhow, they talk to me throughout the day. It's not an audible voice. I always describe it as a thought blast, sometimes a thought nuke lol. I feel good, at peace tbh, such a quite calm, and it's so weird and foreign feeling, but I can't lose them! They're all I have, and all I've ever known.

I just called out to Darold and Ryan and only heard a faint "We're sleeping." Maybe they need a break from me lol. Glad they're okay.