That was a younger age slid me, it was a bad idea to look at my child photos with my mom because it quickly made me age slide.

Oh btw back to the dizzy spinning with 2000+ co-fronting alters feeling now thank goodness and I love it, it makes me feel less conscious, numb, like a zombie or robot, less pain. It's an uggg feeling but yet tbh it's also an ahh thank god feeling.

Feel like rambling though. I could have sworn Darold said they won't intervene anymore to save my life. So I just asked them if it's a subsystem that's now going to prevent me from self ending and they said no, it's a powerful alter named Tammarrow. I don't know how to spell it. Tbh I'm glad someone is there looking out for me.