Well it's 8:30pm and he hasn't even read the text. It says delivered so I guess he's not even going to reply. That's two rejections in a row. I think that part of me that's a believer this reality is fake is triggered so I just want to leave everything human and we can deal with life alone. It's frustrating, everything, and why bother fighting to survive. But I for one give up so much on trying to end. Hopefully something bad happens, car breaks, forced to go to forest. Feel like hurting myself so much!!!! Obviously there's something wrong with me