I am sorry. Not easy. I saw your other post. I see that you have unusual arrangement of having kids all day. You only don’t have them at night and on the weekends. Are you stay at home dad? I’d say you see them a lot. I know it’s still hard but it seems like very generous arrangement. Is this arrangement long term or until they go to day care/school? In the future 50/50 might be a good deal for all parties involved. It’s painful no matter how you slice it, of course.