I searched therapists in northern MD who specialize in dissociative disorders and found none. There are only a few in DE and most don't take Medicare and are only online therapists. (I'm 20 mi. from Wilmington DE.) I feel really hopeless.
I read about dissociative disorders and there are 4 stages of dissociation and I've had most of them: not identifying with oneself is what I've suffered with most of my life.