I cleaned this morning. I always feel depressed while awake in bed before breakfast. After breakfast I feel better; but throughout the time I have my little ups and downs. A lot of times the depression comes from thinking about the future and how I think it will go downhill.

I felt bad a little bit this morning when I talked to my friend by phone. He called me this morning around 8:30. I always want to get going on the cleaning by 9. He was going to a memorial service at 1:00 this afternoon. The part I felt bad about was when I said, "I hate those memorial services", which means that I'd rather talk to him in the afternoon so that I can watch a movie tonight. I felt bad because a woman had passed away and I felt insensitive, but she was 101 years old. I don't think he took it too badly because she just a casual acquaintance whom he hardly knew.

Nothing much else to report about.