Hi AG, don't worry about that post, I totally understand the frame of mind you were in when you posted it, I've been there myself. Personally I'm not at all upset by it or with you. In fact, I'd say that what you posted was even appropriate because that's what this place is here for....to vent, to express what we're feeling at any given moment honestly and openly, just as long as no one gets hurt or is under attack and I don't see that there at all. I know a lot has been going on around here lately, but on the flip side of that....all seems to be much better now. (sigh of relief here). I found that stepping back from this place and taking some time to put things in perspective has been tremendously helpful, therapeutic and enlightening. When things get too intense for you around here or you feel personally accosted....step back for a while. Inner-reflection is vital to our sanity, especially for ones afflicted with bp and all the other "illnesses" so many here are dealing with. Only then can we come back and be constructive, productive members of this wonderful forum, and handle "issues" appropriately. I've taken everyone off "ignore" that I had placed there, I just no longer felt the need to have to treat others (and myself) that way. But I won't hesitate to do it again should the need arise.

As for God abandoning you or rejecting you...not possible. I think it has more to do with the fact that sometimes we have to be at the absolute bottom before "we" allow Him to carry us through. Have you ever seen that poem "Footprints", I don't know it off the top of my head...but the jist of it is that throughout life there are two sets of footprints...ours and Gods, side by side, but then in the most difficult times of our life there is only one set of footprints and the writer of the poem wanted to know why God had abandoned her during the worst of times and God replied "It is in those times I carried you." God does not take us around the rough water, He takes us through it. Keep looking up, He's looking down.

I really appreciate that you cared enough to PM me and make sure that I and "we" are okay. And after reading this post of yours, we still are. TgrsPurr.