Thanks. Idk how to stay sober though. I can do it when I’m “me” and with it, but then I black out and come to it with track marks hours/days/weeks later not even knowing what drugs I did. I think this last time involved meth because of all the pick marks I have, but I remember withdrawing from opiates gave me the same itchy creepy crawlies so not 100% sure.
I’m supposed to speak with a mental health professional again later today to see if they can do something to get me into like a residential or something where I’m in a secure facility but it’s not as strict and rigorous as IP. It’ll be a safe place for a bit until I’m not dissociated half the time and frantically trying to distract myself in that state with fked up habits.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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