Dear T,

I know you were trying to be empathetic today, and it helped a bit. You also seemed in "fix it" mode. But I think a lot of it, thinking of today's actual session plus the past few days, there are a few things that seem really minor on the surface, but they still leave an impact.

But I feel weird bringing any individual thing up because it seems so minor on the surface, or maybe something that couldn't be helped. Like, were you really expecting me to get up and find the other box of tissues today myself? You pretty much always get them for me when I use the last one (even though it would be nice if you handed them to me instead of tossing the box down in the couch beside me). Like, yeah, it wouldn't have been a huge thing to go get them, I guess. But it feels like part of care, on a professional level, not even more than that.

Maybe I'll bring it up next session, I don't know. It's also that I thought we'd agreed to that change to the schedule over text, but apparently you hadn't actually done it? It was fine and worked out, but usually, if you text me and say "Does this day/time work?" and I reply, "That works, thanks!" you put it in your schedule. Maybe you missed my reply, and you usually do confirm (but didn't this time), but I just sort of took it as a given.

It's missing each other, I guess, like misconnecting. And it's probably just an expansion of feeling that in my outside life, with H, D, other family, remediators, work, etc. Where it hits me with you because it's also happening elsewhere. Anyway...

Love,
LT