Thanks 16pennynail. I’m already on SSDI, and on the section 8 waitlist but that’s 8 years out so long (already waited 2). They forced me to have a rep payee though and because I’m stupid I choose my mother and I don’t see a cent of that money. I found another shelter (with no open bed guarantee unlike the one I got kicked out of). Even if I got it, max they give us about $900/mo which I have found no such place that will cover apartment costs (even at a shytty studio in the cheapest, stabby, fireworks going off at night, and drunkard ridden parts of the state) even if I split it with another person AND want to eat.

I wish I had my instruments. I’m pretty good at finding projects that need some one for some lesser found instruments I’m good enough at. I’ve thought about learning sound engineering from some folks I’ve met that record their own stuff and do performances anywhere from Boston to Concord, NH. My old city has a public piano you could play on and I earned some tips doing that, but I have found no such thing here, but if I could get my hands on a guitar I could go back to doing that.

But that’s if I can get myself in a place I can stay awake for more than 2 hours straight.