Well actually I found this forum (which lead me to do some reading).

Some weird things about this...

1) I have known for a long time there have been periods in my life where I am not there. I have in the past described it like I am on the outside watching things happen but not being in control. Later I struggle to remember what happened.

2) I thought this was normal. Even when it came up in counselling I didn't think much of it. My counselor said I was disassociating but I just thought that's what everyone does in stressful/traumatic situations.

But having done a little reading around it I have some questions.

Does everyone do it to some degree or is that not the case?

How the hell can you stop it when it is happening? Honestly the lose of control (feeling of control?) terrifies me. It doesn't feel safe.

I will actually talk to my counsellor about it when I next see her, but thought maybe people here might help me get an initial handle on this.