Hey Rose, nice to meet you. It doesn't sound like you are in a very fun place right now. I feel for you. The study thing can be hard, especially if you are questioning what the heck you are doing (in life). My only tip would be it is a million times easier if you are personally interested in the thing you are studying (and you might be!). It looks like you are doing study to find work, that's hard too but don't think about the study in relation to a specific job. Everything you learn is setting you up for whatever comes later on.

On your other point - if a guy doesn't want you because you can't/don't clean... a life tip would be that is the not the right guy for you. You want a partner not an employer.