It's not easy to clean when you're depressed. And you don't need to get "a man". Cultivate yourself first and not think that you will be "whole" because of a man. Don't give your personal power away. Become strong, and whole, and feel good in your own skin, then the right mate will more likely appear.

Also not easy answering the following question when depressed, but I'll ask you...

What are you passionate about? Do you know? (Try to remember what interested you before mental health issues became a thing in your life.)

Studying isn't for everyone. Maybe you're on the wrong path, listening to outside influences and doing what you "think" is expected. Allow yourself to lead with your heart... and dream!!!