I’m here checking in. I read back and have noticed that some people are in a bad place right now so I am sending positive vibes to everyone that needs them. My only advice is to just hold on, even if it’s just to spite life that’s tried to take you down! It’s ok if the only thing you did today was breathe (I have that tee shirt).

I’m going wonderful still. I’m doing so well that I’ve decided to go back to school for my special ed certification. I might actually be a teacher again. I’m worried that I won’t be able to handle it and I’ll have wasted all this money to pay for the degree and it will be useless. But man, if I can…I loved teaching. And I would love to be in an autism classroom like I work in now. I know a behavior class wouldn’t be the best, I and KNOW I can’t do gen ed co teaching. But if I got an autism or multiple disabilities class I really think I could do it.

I talked to my grandma about whether she thought it was a good idea and she told me “if you never try, you’ll always wonder what could have been”. She’s right. I don’t want to spend my life wondering. So I’m going to try. And if I fail, at least I’ll know. My grandma is the best and I will miss her immensely when she’s gone.

So, today I will be applying to the masters program at my preferred university. I’m excited and anxious, but again, I have to at least try!