Just came clean with my husband about my seroquel abuse.... He told me I was the one who didn't want a med monitor coming over three times a day to watch me take my meds so I needed to stop doing that. I jinxed myself about the decent amount of sleep thing. Only got three hours last night. My anxiety is through the roof! I knew the gabby reduction was a bad idea. I need to call on Monday. Out of complete desperation I just took 200mg of seroquel and 4 800mg of gabapentin. I feel so guilty, but I'm a desperate woman!

I got two short story rejections at the same time. I feel like the world is just one huge NO for me. I feel like such a failure. 😭 I don't know why I even bother. I must be a **** writer because, as an editor of an ezine, I've gotten some really bad stories. The good ones shine through. I don't know what I'm doing wrong! 😭

My husband was a menace...again...and made me go on a two mile hike with him through murky woods. I did not enjoy it. He's making me do it with him again tomorrow morning. Ugh. He's a stubborn man! 😣 There were butterflies. I'm terrified of butterflies. Like I have serious butterfly phobia.