I went to my job and skills to talk about my options I withdrew from my course and when I went home I came up with this realisation that I think that everyone thinks there above me but it's not true. All this time I had put my insecurity on other people that I couldn't even see what my family was trying to make me realise that I needed to fix how I saw myself. That's just heartbreaking all those awful feelings and thoughts and it's not even true.