Turns out I miss IST now I'm processing a new therapy relationship. I told him I feel like he is cautious of me. He said he does feel nervous. He said I'm very direct and it can put him on the back foot. He also said that I did a lot of telling him what I don't want him to do as a therapist and he was left feeling like he can't just turn up as himself. I am glad he told me that. I felt like I understood him more. I am curious about how I feel with him though. I'm telling myself I don't want him to feel nervous of me but I'm saying things that could make him nervous. Maybe I need to see for myself that he can withstand me.