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Blue_Bird · Apr 26, 2024, 08:12 AM

Good morning. I got up early today (5am) journaled, meditated, did 30 min on the treadmill and 15 min of yoga. I’m gonna practice violin today later in the afternoon. My next lesson is on Monday so I really need to put some hours of practice in the next couple days cause I severely slacked on it for a month due to my job being so stressful and overwhelming and physically exhausting. But now I have the time to make practice.

Trigger for mention of substance use

Possible trigger:

I feel pretty calm today. I was a bit emotional last night but also vaped THC last night so that might be why. That’s something I started doing recently like within the last week. It’s completely legal in my state. I hadn’t tried it since I was 16 and I’m 29 now, so it’s been a long time so I’m getting used to it again. But I figured why not. My bf smokes and he recommended it cause it can help with stress relief and relaxation. But yeah, maybe not the healthiest coping skill but to be honest it’s a lot less damaging than impulsively spending money which is something I struggled with for a long time. Overspending. It’s completely gotten rid of that impulsive behavior. Which is nice because I never thought I’d overcome that issue.

It does amplify my paranoia some especially if I’m not in the right mindset before I vape but overall for me the benefits outweigh that.

I figured I’d put that in a trigger thing in case it upsets or triggers anyone. I know everyone has their own opinions and experiences in regards to that so I want to be respectful.

Anyway, plans for the weekend include exercising, cleaning my apartment, practicing violin, spending time with my bf. And maybe try doing some art if I can get the motivation to. I also need to go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds and drop off some books at the library.
Mocha and Mustachio are doing well