I cried a lot. Sobbed, panicked and wept and wept. Triggers were very small and thoughts all over the spectrum. Sometimes feeling terrible, sometimes saying “it’s gonna be okay!”
Was taking a bath, there was no soap, cried. Water was too hot, cried. Pee was too yellow, cried. Friend was nice to me, cried. Cried in intervals.
Went to the library, it reminded me of him, cried. My mother was shocked. She said who is this guy who is making you cry so much? I said I need to forgive myself first.