I know I said I'd do better, but I really don't think I did better last night (idk don't remember much), and all today I haven't been doing good. I've just been throwing bombs left and right, and fighting with anybody that texts/messages me. I've pushed everyone that even remotely cares about me away, and if I couldn't push them away, I've run away. I haven't even been in this city that long, and I know the ins and outs like any local. Cops look at me like I've just committed murder. I'm BANNED from a shelter.

The thing is, I keep saying I want to do better. I even believe it half the time, but I don't stop and think for a second before I do anything and my automatic response is to destroy. Everything. I. Touch.

The world would be better off without me.