Okay, I need some thoughts here. Yeah, my firefighter that takes over that I have no clue what the **** is doing but gives me track marks and headaches, if y’all have any idea what to do with that that’d be good but I’m not expecting that.

But, here me out, now I’m walking around town and people are asking me to go into their drug den and asking me if I’d like a bump or bud & bed. I feel like at one point I won’t be able to handle this and I’ll go back to using all day and night regardless of whether I’m knowingly making these decisions or not.

Maybe if I can get myself somehow to be clean for an extended amount of time whether that’s IP for as long as possible or finding the strictest rehab I can find I’ll stop dissociating and thinking “screw it!!!” Long shot. Idk how they even treat dissociation.