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Default Apr 28, 2024 at 11:25 PM
 
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Originally Posted by LadyShadow View Post
So scared of mania. Really scared. Is it possible that I am unable to accept happiness? If that is that case, I feel doomed then, because when I'm miserable, I just want to be happy, and when I'm happy I'm scared. This sucks! BOO YOU bipolar!
I'd be afraid of feeling good because of the association of euphoria with mania, but now I look out for my more tell-tale signs like lack of need for sleep, hypersexuality, being unable to keep up with my thoughts, and certain specific behaviors I get involved in like listening to multiple songs at the same time, especially specific songs (a couple overt "yeah, I'm manic" ones are Experiment on Me by Halsey and Handlebars by Flobot) on repeat. Hell, if I find myself in Maine that's probably a sign.
But yeah, (hypo)mania has way more tangible symptoms than just "do I feel TOO good?" and being able to recognize those starting to bud becomes easier over time (although maybe not responding in an appropriate manner )

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