Went to pdoc. No good news. He wants me to try TMS. Had to go down on latuda because of the lactation but my prolactin levels are fine. Going up on Zoloft. I'm supposed to be taking 120 latuda but I only have 80 mg tables and they can't be split. So 80 it is until the 60's come in. Doubling up my Zoloft until the new pills are in. I'm giving up hope. What if this isn't depression and this is just who I am. I'm desperate but TMS sounds scary. I just don't want to get so desperate that I regret what I do. what if I need dopamine? I'm treatment resistant depression. I don't want to be treatment resistant.