My biggest obstacle in dealing with my depression is my "letting go" of pain caused by my sister Nancy and her husband, Marvin. How am I supposed to let go of what Nancy did to the family when it still hurts so damn much? Of all the physical pain I've had in my life... sunburns, dry socket, ruptured ovary... EVERYTHING... none of it compares to what Nancy has done. I would rather go through all that physical pain again ALL AT ONCE than to have this heartache. When my mom gets quiet and says that she is not a good mother and was not a good grandmother... how am I supposed to let go of that? If I were to send her a letter, she and Marvin would retaliate. How do you suggest that I let go of a sister that I hate and love at the same time? This has been eating at me for 6 years.