Welp. Got the call that T had to cancel for Friday.

Have they been surveilling me? Thinking I'm going to be a hopeless, untreatable liability? Or that I'm going to run off hours away and they'll be wasting their time?

UGH!

I'd stay in town and with the CMHC if I had good treatment.
I'd stay on this planet if I had good reason to. Right now I'm thinking that's not so.

Are they already sick of me? I haven't even been with my case manager a month and she said "call if you need anything" and I was told that could be anything from "I don't know where to get food" to "I want to jump off the bridge," so naturally I called I think five times (okay, yeah, generally in the middle of the night from a park about how there was a small thing and then I did the wrong thing and now it's a big thing). They probably think I'm going to be too much, and if they're not giving up on me right now, they will quickly. Gonna just leave them alone, let them focus on better things.