You are very kind, I know my father pushed me, but I am the one that signed the paperwork, and swore the oaths. Oh Lordy if I only had time machine, or a way to transmit some wisdom back to my younger self. It was not all bad, I met the quality of people, and stood with them against things one only does sparingly in one lifetime. Someone has to do it, or what we hold near and dear and the place we live would be in much more danger. I have heard it said about police officers, and combat in the military is the same way. In the night when something happens most people run from. we run towards it, as someone must surely do.