It's like I have to be all secretive now and not tell my CM my current thought process and some of the stuff I'm doing to avoid another POINTLESS IP stay. Yeah, I have have made some less than great decisions over the past month or two, and last night was the icing on the cake. I KNOW if I told her what I did she would try to hospitalize me, and that will NOT help because by they time they even move me to the psych building I'll be fine, just pissed that I'm there, be discharged pretty quickly because I AM at baseline and there's really no getting BETTER, and then get out and go back to the same poor decisions after a week of thinking "I'm going to do well and not be a POS."