I don't know how to express myself to my CM though. I don't even know what's going on most of the time, and I can't answer questions like "what's going on right now?" and "what can I do to help/what do you need?" and yeah, I say I don't know because I don't, but that doesn't help either of us. I don't want her to get sick of me calling for vague, unpleasant feelings that, good chance, will pass in an hour or two.