Ayyyy it's @
Blueberrybook!!!!
I have a lot of reasons to not go IP right now. The main one is it'll be a waste of time and money. I know I'll get out in anywhere from a day or two to a month and feel hopeful for a couple hours and then run into some speed bump and immediately go back to the "who knows what destructive thing Sam will do today" status quo.
Right now there are three (trying to make amends with someone I only slightly pissed off so that might be four soon) people I'm on good enough terms with for them to let me sleep on their couch or spare bed, and I'm keeping them happy with prepping meals and keeping a clean space. I feel fine right now. I think from now on I can keep things under wraps.