It's so difficult especially with children around. When they see you cry they feel they are the ones causing your sadness.
I'm a frog of little brain so I have no answers. Realize we are here to listen. Perhaps venting to us will release some of the tensions your feeling.
Understand that many of us have been where you are now.
We know you feel isolated and alone but we are here for you.

((((( daynnight )))))