I'd like to add that we take certain directions or make certain choices, because unknowingly, on some level, we need to learn this lesson for our life.

that answer sucks, I know and I'm very sorry.

it's the only way that I can make sense out of the horrible matters and deep pains people suffer. this works for me.

it works for me although it's difficult. some people have religion to help them hope. i have accountability. someone else uses logic ...

whatever works, please find out for you - and you don't need the answers in one day - thankfully, or you'd be an anxious disorder ready to happen like some of us who knew very little about depression before - say -around 20 years ago.

anyway, find an outlet to release the sadness in a positive way (like art or some way to answer your emotional needs like helping others), or a reason to hope (like dance or volunteer, some activity that moves forward) and somehow, in your endeavor, you will lift yourself up.

this is life, including the bad part you feel now.
the good part is as close as a breathe away or your next thought, but for most of us, it takes longer.

see a therapist if you can, that is enlightening. i did for times in my life i felt like i was drowning. i'm still here. and with more than i ever imagined, and better than i expected. still have depression and anxiety though, because it is an illness.

love,
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