My Support Forums - View Single Post - wishing like the end of my natural life would just hurry up (triggering maybe?)

Blueberrybook · May 04, 2024, 10:58 AM

Not sure if this is a trigger, but just in case:

I'm 46, and I've been dealing with mental health issues since I was 20. On the gamut of psych meds since then. In and out of therapy. I don't know if anything will help. Along with bipolar, I have panic disorder, OCD and also annoying peripheral neuropathy and stomach issues (ulcer history).

Possible trigger:

I don't know, lately I'm feeling like it's never going to get better, and I just can't wait for life to be over. I'm not suicidal per se (definitely no plan), but I'm just wishing I were at the end of my natural life and wanting it all to be over. My luck, I'll live till I'm 100, and I'm not wanting a long natural life. I feel like I wish my natural life would just end already. I have told my pdoc this , and he frowns but doesn't make any med adjustments just mentions therapy, but I've had it with wasting money on therapy. Therapy just hasn't helped me, and I have seen over a dozen different therapists with different types of therapy (CBT, DBT etc.).

Am I the only one feeling this way?