Dear Violet,
That reeks of depression, and there is lots of hope.
Does your Dr. know you are slipping with this?
If not, clue him in, call him, whatever, and get a better medication to get you out of the rut.
The rest is determination and perseverance. I mean, the beauty stuff, lol.
You can feel better and get it together.
Nobody deserves it more than people who suffer - who feel deeply.
Please feel better soon -
peace and love,
nightbird