I have to post.... I am so so so sorry to be a bummer... but if I don't post... I will do more...

I ate a whole box of Fruit loops... and sick.. of course.. cause flooded my system with so much sugar...

I.. binged.. passed out.. binged passed out all weekend.. from father's day... pain... so hard to honor a person.. that hurt you..

I want to... and really think... that my fellow alter will get a tattoo.. it will... say

UNLOVABLE

on the inside of my arm... running upward...

I truely... think this will "fix" my eating disorder.... I think that if I mark.. what I am... what I truely am.. on the inside.. and outside.. that maybe I won't have to ED anynore..

My therapist figured out... that my ED.. started when I was in 2nd grade... always the small child... but learned how to binge... then not eat for days....

my mom... had an ED... my sister... my nephew.. and me...

The tattoo.. would fix everything..

UNLOVEABLE... by my parents... by my sister.. by the world..

do you understand... how it would fix it???? I do...